State of Being

I witnessed the biggest thing that made my heart both jump and drop yesterday. I was taking my son on an outing. It was just he, myself and the pets here. Before dragging him out into the cold for the car, I needed to put the carseat base in. I strapped him in his seat, bundled him and securely sat him on a chair. I then headed outside to strap the base in, leaving him sit for no more than 5 minutes.

When I returned, he was wailing! I felt terrible watching his little red face streamed with tears as he screamed. Yet, as soon as I walked over to him and said, "Aw, Zavi! I'm so sorry! Mommy is here. I would NEVER leave you!" he quieted down and began to coo. I realized at that moment that he thought I left him, but that the mere sound of my voice soothed him. He recognized it- recognized ME- and immediately felt secure. Though my heart ached at having him think I'd left him, it did me good to see him realize that mommy will always be there when it counts. :-)